To the girl who feels stuck,
You’re me right now. But I also know that a lot of other people feel stuck. So as much as this letter is to myself, it’s to all the other girls (and guys) out there who feel just as what the heck as I do.
You feel really stuck right now.
Like really stuck.
You thought you were doing great, you thought you were going 100 mph at everything, and you thought everything was under the control.
But then maybe you realized that things aren’t as hunky dory as you originally thought.
And that’s okay!!
But that doesn’t mean that it doesn’t hurt to realize that you’re still human. That you’re still a human in recovery.
(PS, stop cringing at the “in recovery” part. It’s fact. That’s not going away anytime soon. Yes, “recovered” will come, but you’re not there. It’s okay that you’re not recovered yet. That takes time. Years, even. You’ve only been out of treatment for nine months. You’re not supposed to have it all together yet.)
I know that it hurts. It actually hurts a lot to be smacked in the face with reality.
You thought you were going 100 mph, and maybe you were, but you just missed a few turns along the way. Or maybe you were going 75 mph, so just a little slower than you thought. Or maybe even you were going 120 mph, so fast that you were being reckless and missed a few stop signs. Regardless, you’re not where you thought.
And just because you’re not at your destination yet doesn’t mean that where you’re at isn’t beautiful and good too.
Appreciate where you’re at right now. It’s not the end point, and it may not even be the middle point, but it’s still a good point. It’s still worthy of being at.
You might not be as far as you thought you are, but that doesn’t change how far you’ve already come.
Girlfriend, you’ve come so dang far. You’ve conquered so many hard things that you never thought were possible.
So guess what?
You can keep conquering things.
You’re going to keep kicking things in the booty because that’s just who you are as a warrior.
I know that you feel stuck.
You thought you were at point D, but maybe you’re only at point C.
But hey, you’ve already passed points A and B.
And being at point C is pretty dang awesome.
Being at point C does not make you stuck.
It just means you’re at a different place than you originally thought.
And let me let you in on a little secret.
You’re not as stuck as you think you are.
You have some things to work through and some lingering thoughts to tackle.
But you’ve grown a lot of strength and endurance this past year, so you’re going to tackle and defeat these thoughts a lot quicker than you would have a year ago.
You’ve grown so much, girl.
You’re moving mountains.
You’re not stuck.
Hear me again.
You are not stuck.
You’re moving and you’re beating things and you’re conquering and winning.
And you’re still doing that, even at point C.
Don’t be discouraged.
You’re doing so good.
Keep it up. Don’t give in.
Don’t give in to the voice in your head that’s telling you that it’s not worth it anymore.
If something is telling you to quit just because you’re not as far as you thought, that is a voice that is not worth listening to.
You are worthy of continuing.
You are worthy of continuing because you are worthy of winning in the end.
You are worthy of the victory.
You might feel stuck, but you are not stuck.
Where you’re at is still worthy of being at, and your final destination is still worthy of fighting for.
You’re rocking it, girlfriend.
You’re inspiring as heck.
You’re me and you inspire me.
Present me is being inspired by past me because past me was a total kick butt rockstar and I know that present me is still that same girl.
Keep doing what you’re doing because it’s totally working.
Keep on keeping on.
You’re doing it, girlfriend.
You are doing it.